In the midst of all the assignments, clinicals and lectures... I realize that you really can't escape from the circle of life... All the feelings that i experienced before is all coming back to me now... in the busy schedule, can't help but to feel a bit of tiredness, drop in enthusiasm level, tired of always having to communicate with other people where unevitably i have to put on a mask of some kind...
Really feel like going into a retreat...
Tuesday, August 29
Sunday, August 20
Mum's better...
Been home for 5 days during my university's convo holidays last week...
Seen my mum, although still feeling a bit weak, at least she can walk and talk like before. A big stone off my heart! (Is there such a proverb in english like this? So long time never use essay english, become 'karat' already... *sigh*)
Went to Penang after that to attend convo.. Ate a lot of local dishes such as the all famous Penang cha kuey tiaw, Penang laksa, cendol, loh mee etc
and best of all, finally get to sing karaoke at Gurney Plaza! Ha..Ha... Shiok!
So nice! too bad i don't have a camera, didn't take pictures to post it here.. so you just have to imagine lar... = )
Seen my mum, although still feeling a bit weak, at least she can walk and talk like before. A big stone off my heart! (Is there such a proverb in english like this? So long time never use essay english, become 'karat' already... *sigh*)
Went to Penang after that to attend convo.. Ate a lot of local dishes such as the all famous Penang cha kuey tiaw, Penang laksa, cendol, loh mee etc
and best of all, finally get to sing karaoke at Gurney Plaza! Ha..Ha... Shiok!
So nice! too bad i don't have a camera, didn't take pictures to post it here.. so you just have to imagine lar... = )
Tuesday, August 1
Days of Sadness...
My mum's been hospitalized in ICU, HSAJB...
It just happened so suddenly..!
Just last week i got a call from my brother saying my mum entered the hospital due to renal calculi (kidney stones)...
Ermm, okay stones aren't a big problem at all, perhaps it will just passed out by itself
Then, last Friday, i got a call from my brother saying my mum had been admitted into ICU! I frozed. I really frozed on the spot.
Worse thing is that they haven't found out the real cause which was causing all the symptoms (low blood pressure, chest pain, O2 saturation low, respiratory failure)!
Then, when i gotten home the next day, more shockingly, i was told my mun have to be intubated (which meant really really serious..!)
Okay, what's worse than this can happened? I really hope not...
We went to visit her everyday and she was already on sedation.
I talked to her when i don't even know whether she could hear me..
Thinking to myself, 'Perhaps this is a chance for her to get back the lost sleepless hours that she had'. Positive thinking, did some good to me at least...
After a few days, the doctor told us that she can be extubated! Boy was i glad! When we visit her the next day, she was conscious as the sedation's effects wore off, but she complains of abdominal pain this time round. Provisional diagnosis: gallstones.
My brother assured me that this is a minor thing compared to what happened to her.
Really hope she won't get any of the complications and recover soon.
It just happened so suddenly..!
Just last week i got a call from my brother saying my mum entered the hospital due to renal calculi (kidney stones)...
Ermm, okay stones aren't a big problem at all, perhaps it will just passed out by itself
Then, last Friday, i got a call from my brother saying my mum had been admitted into ICU! I frozed. I really frozed on the spot.
Worse thing is that they haven't found out the real cause which was causing all the symptoms (low blood pressure, chest pain, O2 saturation low, respiratory failure)!
Then, when i gotten home the next day, more shockingly, i was told my mun have to be intubated (which meant really really serious..!)
Okay, what's worse than this can happened? I really hope not...
We went to visit her everyday and she was already on sedation.
I talked to her when i don't even know whether she could hear me..
Thinking to myself, 'Perhaps this is a chance for her to get back the lost sleepless hours that she had'. Positive thinking, did some good to me at least...
After a few days, the doctor told us that she can be extubated! Boy was i glad! When we visit her the next day, she was conscious as the sedation's effects wore off, but she complains of abdominal pain this time round. Provisional diagnosis: gallstones.
My brother assured me that this is a minor thing compared to what happened to her.
Really hope she won't get any of the complications and recover soon.
Tuesday, July 18
Back in good ol' Kelantan
Wow... I never realize time flies THIS fast... I am in my third year of university life already..!
Coming back to this place always had an effect on me. When i first step into the campus, i was like "Omigod! Same ol' place same ol' problem: have to study like h**l liao... if i still want to advance"
Third year = Exam year = Bad
= (
Then, seeing the freshies walking here and there trying to familiarize the new environment brings back ol' memories... how i acted during my first year: explore the whole campus on feet, go town by waiting for the public bus which comes every 30 mins (0_O), having to greet every seniors i met, try to be friendly to others, join activities, all the while struggling with my studies... not an easy feat i must say... Been there, done that!
Now, i just wanna put in more effort into my studies as well as to make some changes to myself. I hope really really to be able to improve myself in some ways. Well, men have to keep flowing and improving with time.. which is a tough feat for me!
New semester, new resolutions, new hope...!
Coming back to this place always had an effect on me. When i first step into the campus, i was like "Omigod! Same ol' place same ol' problem: have to study like h**l liao... if i still want to advance"
Third year = Exam year = Bad
= (
Then, seeing the freshies walking here and there trying to familiarize the new environment brings back ol' memories... how i acted during my first year: explore the whole campus on feet, go town by waiting for the public bus which comes every 30 mins (0_O), having to greet every seniors i met, try to be friendly to others, join activities, all the while struggling with my studies... not an easy feat i must say... Been there, done that!
Now, i just wanna put in more effort into my studies as well as to make some changes to myself. I hope really really to be able to improve myself in some ways. Well, men have to keep flowing and improving with time.. which is a tough feat for me!
New semester, new resolutions, new hope...!
Monday, June 26
Happy Birthday to Me!
It's a happy 25th June! It's my birthday!!!
Happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to me eee,
happy birthday to me. (^^,)
It's meaningful birthday this year beacuse i did something good this day to mark my birthday!
We went to a Home in Taman Megah with disabled kids... We played with them and they really enjoyed our company. We can really see they need someone to care for them. I'm glad i am able to inject some joy into their lives.
It felt great!
Happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to me eee,
happy birthday to me. (^^,)
It's meaningful birthday this year beacuse i did something good this day to mark my birthday!
We went to a Home in Taman Megah with disabled kids... We played with them and they really enjoyed our company. We can really see they need someone to care for them. I'm glad i am able to inject some joy into their lives.
It felt great!
Thursday, June 22
A Day at Taman Sinar Harapan
It's been a while since i have posted something here... i have been in KL for about 3 weeks now with no internet access for my Undergraduate Training Programme.
It's been a very wonderful experience for me: i met a lot of new friends whom i feel are really amazing people, each with their very own virtues and specialties.
Yesterday, i went to Taman Sinar Harapan with this group of friends. This place is located in Selangor and is a place for people with disabilities, some mild and some severe; some very young and some very old. Some were sent here by families and some were abandoned by their families.
We did some chores for them yet those were only very little things that we were able to do for them compare to the staffs that works day and night who cares for them 24/7.
At first, seeing them made my mind dropped to a state to depressed and sympathic; it made me wonders why would there be people who have to suffer like this and it's for a lifetime..! Some were bedridden and will be bedridden for the rest of their life; some unable to speak, some unable to see; some are left with only the sense of touch and most of them live in a world of their own. Yet some are just to normal to be there..! They can sing and dance just like us, maybe better!
As the day progressed, i began to feel quite differently. I shouldn't have the feeling of sympathy for them, i should be empathic... i also realised what's more important is that they are happy in the world of their own and doesn't care about the woes of the outside world..! They may be happier than most of us!
I felt better after that, and able to blend in with them better and felt happy that i am able to make them gay!
All of us felt contented and have a great sense of fulfillment when we left the place. After this trip, we will go to another home with disabilities on the 25th June.
-The more you give, the more you'll receive, the more happy you'll be!-
It's been a very wonderful experience for me: i met a lot of new friends whom i feel are really amazing people, each with their very own virtues and specialties.
Yesterday, i went to Taman Sinar Harapan with this group of friends. This place is located in Selangor and is a place for people with disabilities, some mild and some severe; some very young and some very old. Some were sent here by families and some were abandoned by their families.
We did some chores for them yet those were only very little things that we were able to do for them compare to the staffs that works day and night who cares for them 24/7.
At first, seeing them made my mind dropped to a state to depressed and sympathic; it made me wonders why would there be people who have to suffer like this and it's for a lifetime..! Some were bedridden and will be bedridden for the rest of their life; some unable to speak, some unable to see; some are left with only the sense of touch and most of them live in a world of their own. Yet some are just to normal to be there..! They can sing and dance just like us, maybe better!
As the day progressed, i began to feel quite differently. I shouldn't have the feeling of sympathy for them, i should be empathic... i also realised what's more important is that they are happy in the world of their own and doesn't care about the woes of the outside world..! They may be happier than most of us!
I felt better after that, and able to blend in with them better and felt happy that i am able to make them gay!
All of us felt contented and have a great sense of fulfillment when we left the place. After this trip, we will go to another home with disabilities on the 25th June.
-The more you give, the more you'll receive, the more happy you'll be!-
Thursday, May 18
Turtle elective!
Sorry for late posting... i had just finish my elective programme at terengganu where i spent 2 weeks living a 'primitive' lifestyle without the wonders of electricity! therefore, i had no access to the net and subsequently unable to post.
The whole experience is wonderful! For the 1st 5 days, i went to a beach in Redang Island named Mak Kepit which is a turtle sanctuary. There, me and my friends had to cook our own meals, and helped the workers there to patrol at night. Every night, there's about 2 to 3 turtles that would come ashore to lay eggs.. our job includes tag the turtle for identification, detect any abnormalities of the mother turtle and also measure the diameters of the turtle eggs...
The sight of the mother turtles laying eggs is eye-opening! the whole process will take about 3 to 4 hours where most of the time will be used in finding the perfect spot and hole-digging! the actual process of egg-laying will only take about 30 minutes! Then, the mother had to cover the hole and make its way back into the ocean. It's a really tough process.
During daytime, we are free as there's nothing much to do, most of our job was done at night. So, we went snorkelling everyday in the afternoon just in front of the beach!
The people there treat us very well and we formed strong bonds... and we really feel relunctant to leave the beach when the day comes...
then, we were assigned to another area named Ma' Daerah which is another turtle sanctuary. We joined in their Weekend Programme and had a lot of fun with the participants. And what luck! We got to see turtle hatchlings emerge from their nest and had the oppurtunity to free the hatchlings into the ocean!!!
The little hatchlings are soooooo cute!!!
I am really glad i had chosen this topic as my elective studies..! The experience is priceless.
The whole experience is wonderful! For the 1st 5 days, i went to a beach in Redang Island named Mak Kepit which is a turtle sanctuary. There, me and my friends had to cook our own meals, and helped the workers there to patrol at night. Every night, there's about 2 to 3 turtles that would come ashore to lay eggs.. our job includes tag the turtle for identification, detect any abnormalities of the mother turtle and also measure the diameters of the turtle eggs...
The sight of the mother turtles laying eggs is eye-opening! the whole process will take about 3 to 4 hours where most of the time will be used in finding the perfect spot and hole-digging! the actual process of egg-laying will only take about 30 minutes! Then, the mother had to cover the hole and make its way back into the ocean. It's a really tough process.
During daytime, we are free as there's nothing much to do, most of our job was done at night. So, we went snorkelling everyday in the afternoon just in front of the beach!
The people there treat us very well and we formed strong bonds... and we really feel relunctant to leave the beach when the day comes...
then, we were assigned to another area named Ma' Daerah which is another turtle sanctuary. We joined in their Weekend Programme and had a lot of fun with the participants. And what luck! We got to see turtle hatchlings emerge from their nest and had the oppurtunity to free the hatchlings into the ocean!!!
The little hatchlings are soooooo cute!!!
I am really glad i had chosen this topic as my elective studies..! The experience is priceless.
Thursday, April 13
Last Day of 2nd year lecture!
With the ending of today's lecture, i have finished my 2nd year course and study week will commence starting tomorrow. In about a week, i will be having my continuous assessment and after that i will undergo a month elective programme and that will put a full stop to my 2nd year life!
Time just fly by so fast... Don't they ever wait for others?
Well wish me luck for the coming test!
Time just fly by so fast... Don't they ever wait for others?
Well wish me luck for the coming test!
Sunday, April 9
House..
Recently, my coursemate introduce this series to me and it is really a fantastic show...
House is an english series that revolves around the life of a doctor (House is his name) who solves a particularly difficult case every episode.
It's interesting to see how he actually apply medical knowledge (and finally i can actually see what i am learning getting applied... it's exciting when a familiar term was heard during the show..!) and it's different from Scrub as in Scrub, it's a funnier version of what you would (most probably not) get in a hospital...
I would recommend medical students and medical students-to-be to try watch it, it kinds of give a morale booster too...
Enjoy!
House is an english series that revolves around the life of a doctor (House is his name) who solves a particularly difficult case every episode.
It's interesting to see how he actually apply medical knowledge (and finally i can actually see what i am learning getting applied... it's exciting when a familiar term was heard during the show..!) and it's different from Scrub as in Scrub, it's a funnier version of what you would (most probably not) get in a hospital...
I would recommend medical students and medical students-to-be to try watch it, it kinds of give a morale booster too...
Enjoy!
Thursday, April 6
2 Clinicals in 1 Day!!!
Well... the previous problems not solve but it's slowly 'dissolving' if you get what i meant...
anyway on this particular 'lucky' day where i can be as free as a bird..the whole day.. mind you, changed into a busy-as-a-bee-day for me.
i have been wearing my white coat since morning! It so happens that i get to finally replace my GastroIntestinal clinical session that i missed 2 months back (which is a very long time ago) this morning, which actually is a good thing because i need to pass up a report for it. Then, i have to present my Obstetric & Gynaecology case this afternoon!
Carefree Day => Super Hectic Day
i think i should get used to it though because i am predicting that i'll be facing this kind of situation a lot if not everyday in the future...
anyway on this particular 'lucky' day where i can be as free as a bird..the whole day.. mind you, changed into a busy-as-a-bee-day for me.
i have been wearing my white coat since morning! It so happens that i get to finally replace my GastroIntestinal clinical session that i missed 2 months back (which is a very long time ago) this morning, which actually is a good thing because i need to pass up a report for it. Then, i have to present my Obstetric & Gynaecology case this afternoon!
Carefree Day => Super Hectic Day
i think i should get used to it though because i am predicting that i'll be facing this kind of situation a lot if not everyday in the future...
Sunday, March 26
Conflict
Life in full of choices, that is the truth that i realized some times ago yet everytime i am to make a choice, i will still struggle which to choose....
I guess humans are like that huh? You will react differently when you are in the real situation compared to what you say or seemed to react if you are in that particular situation...
Recently, something happened between me and one of my friend... he is the kind of guy that doesn't care much about how you feel or will do anything for this relationship, a freelancer who will find anyone he seemed expert enough to help him in different aspects.
So, something happened and i went into cold war with him.. it wasn't really his fault in the 1st place but when i see him, i just don't know how to react... he seemed nonchalant about it and it just irritates me, although i know i shouldn't feel this way... how should i settle this? by putting up my white flag? or continue the 'war'? or wait for him to surrender although i know it's impossible? or just wait until we both forget about everything or maybe just end this friendship which doesn't seemed to affect him even a little?
Well, that's life isn't it? Problems, problems and more problems...
= (
Hope i can find something that can make me feel a bit better now... i guess i'll indulgence myself with some nice food and a good afternoon nap after this! that should make me feel better...
= )
I guess humans are like that huh? You will react differently when you are in the real situation compared to what you say or seemed to react if you are in that particular situation...
Recently, something happened between me and one of my friend... he is the kind of guy that doesn't care much about how you feel or will do anything for this relationship, a freelancer who will find anyone he seemed expert enough to help him in different aspects.
So, something happened and i went into cold war with him.. it wasn't really his fault in the 1st place but when i see him, i just don't know how to react... he seemed nonchalant about it and it just irritates me, although i know i shouldn't feel this way... how should i settle this? by putting up my white flag? or continue the 'war'? or wait for him to surrender although i know it's impossible? or just wait until we both forget about everything or maybe just end this friendship which doesn't seemed to affect him even a little?
Well, that's life isn't it? Problems, problems and more problems...
= (
Hope i can find something that can make me feel a bit better now... i guess i'll indulgence myself with some nice food and a good afternoon nap after this! that should make me feel better...
= )
Thursday, March 9
Back from Langkawi!!!
I had so much fun in Langkawi! My 4 days stay there seemed to pass so quickly...
On the first day, we went to the Underwater World where we saw a lot of fishes and the penguins are so cute!!!
When the penguin swim, only their anterior white coloured part is in the water and the rest is above water. guess you can try imagine how they looked like!
Then we went to sit the cable car to the mountain top and the scenery is picturesque... to feel the breeze gently blowing is so refreshing and calming... we also watched the sunset there...
The next day, we went to our Prime Gallery (Galeri Perdana) where stuffs related to our previous prime minister Dato' Seri Dr. Mahathir Mohamad are displayed. In the evening, we went to a beach to swim but very unluckily, all of us were bitten by unknown species of bug and i was badly bitten: there are a lot of red dots on my extremities and itchiness kept bugging me since
= (
The third day was the best as we journeyed out to the waters... we went to a dormant volcano island named Pregnant Lady Island (Pulau Dayang Bunting) and swam in the lake and played banana boat!!! It was so exciting and adrenaline-pumping experience as we are thrown into the waters!!!
The last day is our shopping day and we bought lots and lots of CHOCOLATE!!!
*to KP: KK is back in jb now until Sunday, so if you can get hold of him, maybe he'll give you some of it...
Overall, it was really fun but now i am still itching due to the bug bites...
On the first day, we went to the Underwater World where we saw a lot of fishes and the penguins are so cute!!!
When the penguin swim, only their anterior white coloured part is in the water and the rest is above water. guess you can try imagine how they looked like!
Then we went to sit the cable car to the mountain top and the scenery is picturesque... to feel the breeze gently blowing is so refreshing and calming... we also watched the sunset there...
The next day, we went to our Prime Gallery (Galeri Perdana) where stuffs related to our previous prime minister Dato' Seri Dr. Mahathir Mohamad are displayed. In the evening, we went to a beach to swim but very unluckily, all of us were bitten by unknown species of bug and i was badly bitten: there are a lot of red dots on my extremities and itchiness kept bugging me since
= (
The third day was the best as we journeyed out to the waters... we went to a dormant volcano island named Pregnant Lady Island (Pulau Dayang Bunting) and swam in the lake and played banana boat!!! It was so exciting and adrenaline-pumping experience as we are thrown into the waters!!!
The last day is our shopping day and we bought lots and lots of CHOCOLATE!!!
*to KP: KK is back in jb now until Sunday, so if you can get hold of him, maybe he'll give you some of it...
Overall, it was really fun but now i am still itching due to the bug bites...
Tuesday, February 28
Back from Village...
Wow, just came back from my village yesterday.
it felt really nice during the stay actually so i kinda miss it... a little.
Most of the 'mokcik'(aunties) and 'pokcik'(uncles) are really kind while we are doing survey at their houses.
some even served food!!! i've tasted the infamous 'lakse kelate'(Kelantanese laksa) and of course my village's specialty: 'ayer nyiur wangi'(coconut water)!!!
Now that i am back, i am looking forward for my Langkawi trip!!!
Oh, this world is full of joy!!!
it felt really nice during the stay actually so i kinda miss it... a little.
Most of the 'mokcik'(aunties) and 'pokcik'(uncles) are really kind while we are doing survey at their houses.
some even served food!!! i've tasted the infamous 'lakse kelate'(Kelantanese laksa) and of course my village's specialty: 'ayer nyiur wangi'(coconut water)!!!
Now that i am back, i am looking forward for my Langkawi trip!!!
Oh, this world is full of joy!!!
Tuesday, February 21
Have to enter village in 2 days...
As a part of our medical programme, we have to live with a foster family at a nearby village while we do community research there.
this will be the 2nd time we are going in and it's for another 5 days.
During the stay, we will be doing questionnaires from families to families...
After that have to prepare data for presentation to panel as well as prepare a proposal for intervention to the problems in the village.
So, i will be busy for quite some times and most probably have to time to update.
Wish me luck.
this will be the 2nd time we are going in and it's for another 5 days.
During the stay, we will be doing questionnaires from families to families...
After that have to prepare data for presentation to panel as well as prepare a proposal for intervention to the problems in the village.
So, i will be busy for quite some times and most probably have to time to update.
Wish me luck.
Sunday, February 12
What is love?
Valentines approaching and everybody is asking everybody these questions:
- who you are going out with?
- where you are going to bring thet person to?
- what is your present?
This makes me think about what love really is? and the purpose of finding a lifetime partner.
For me, i feel that there is no such need! If you are talking about partnership and connections, you can always find your friends, i think everybody will have at least 1 true friend to turn to... and sometimes, your true friends are even closer to you compare to your partner..!
If it's only to live together till old, start a family, have sex, have children, then i feel it's redundant and is added the element of lust.
The qualities of love is that you care for the other person unconditionally, never expect anything in return...
Or perhaps it's our animal instinct that guide us to seek for a sex partner, to continue our species legacy; dates and marriage is just social ethics to get the hunt.
Just bits of my thoughts. pls don't mind my blabberings...
Anyway, Happy Valentine's Day to all!
- who you are going out with?
- where you are going to bring thet person to?
- what is your present?
This makes me think about what love really is? and the purpose of finding a lifetime partner.
For me, i feel that there is no such need! If you are talking about partnership and connections, you can always find your friends, i think everybody will have at least 1 true friend to turn to... and sometimes, your true friends are even closer to you compare to your partner..!
If it's only to live together till old, start a family, have sex, have children, then i feel it's redundant and is added the element of lust.
The qualities of love is that you care for the other person unconditionally, never expect anything in return...
Or perhaps it's our animal instinct that guide us to seek for a sex partner, to continue our species legacy; dates and marriage is just social ethics to get the hunt.
Just bits of my thoughts. pls don't mind my blabberings...
Anyway, Happy Valentine's Day to all!
Monday, February 6
Happy Chinese New Year!
Wow... every year, it will be a different experience.
This is the first year my sister-in-law joins us for reunion dinner. It's been a while since reunion dinner is so lively. We cracked jokes and talked throughtout the dinner.
But, this year i didn't get to meet as many friends as yesteryears... mainly due to timing... maybe next year.
now, that i am back in campus... everything had to begin from the start; the mega 'Chinese New Year Night' is over (at last... after 3 months of hard work); now had to concentrate on studies! time to get my notes and stuffs reorganized... which is quite messy... and i actually haven't quite recover from my lack of sleep during that period... = (
plus, have to wait for the 'Post-CNY Syndrome' to subside...
symptoms include
- staring at the same page for longer than 15 minutes and still don't know what's it about;
- at a fixed time of the day (for me, it's 8.00 pm at night) we lost control and just have to idle around aimlessly or look for friends to chat away the time;
- most converstion are governed by what happened that night, who wore what, comments and stuffs associated with it...
usually this syndrome will subside after about 1 month if mild and for those who are more serious, it can lasts for half a year!!!
Well then, time to start afresh! Ahoy, here comes nerdy Jason once again!!!
This is the first year my sister-in-law joins us for reunion dinner. It's been a while since reunion dinner is so lively. We cracked jokes and talked throughtout the dinner.
But, this year i didn't get to meet as many friends as yesteryears... mainly due to timing... maybe next year.
now, that i am back in campus... everything had to begin from the start; the mega 'Chinese New Year Night' is over (at last... after 3 months of hard work); now had to concentrate on studies! time to get my notes and stuffs reorganized... which is quite messy... and i actually haven't quite recover from my lack of sleep during that period... = (
plus, have to wait for the 'Post-CNY Syndrome' to subside...
symptoms include
- staring at the same page for longer than 15 minutes and still don't know what's it about;
- at a fixed time of the day (for me, it's 8.00 pm at night) we lost control and just have to idle around aimlessly or look for friends to chat away the time;
- most converstion are governed by what happened that night, who wore what, comments and stuffs associated with it...
usually this syndrome will subside after about 1 month if mild and for those who are more serious, it can lasts for half a year!!!
Well then, time to start afresh! Ahoy, here comes nerdy Jason once again!!!
Monday, January 9
Long time no update...
Sorry lar for not updating frequently, just like i said, these few weeks are the crucial weeks for me to finish up the preparation for CNY Night.
Now, everyday doing the same routine:
- late morning: sleep (because couldn't wake up on time to go for 1st lecture)
- afternoon: sleep at lecture hall (because the lecture too boring, and tiredness overcome me)
- night: active! doing props for sketch, finish up decoration items until early in the morning...
- early morning: do assignments and reports...
- and the cycle repeats itself...
However, i really enjoyed the time well spent. Just last friday, i spent the whole day at the sewing machine (the old type where you have to step on the paddle). Although it's tiring but i find it fun and the sense of accomplishment when i saw the result! All the beautifully sewn clothes, my art!!! ; p
Well, will keep on working hard as the 'big' night is getting nearer and nearer...
Now, everyday doing the same routine:
- late morning: sleep (because couldn't wake up on time to go for 1st lecture)
- afternoon: sleep at lecture hall (because the lecture too boring, and tiredness overcome me)
- night: active! doing props for sketch, finish up decoration items until early in the morning...
- early morning: do assignments and reports...
- and the cycle repeats itself...
However, i really enjoyed the time well spent. Just last friday, i spent the whole day at the sewing machine (the old type where you have to step on the paddle). Although it's tiring but i find it fun and the sense of accomplishment when i saw the result! All the beautifully sewn clothes, my art!!! ; p
Well, will keep on working hard as the 'big' night is getting nearer and nearer...
Monday, December 19
It's beginning...
This is the first time i am posting after a long strenous week of all day self studying just for 2 short days of exam!
Although i had a week but when it comes to exam, most of the answers are quite spontaneusly creatively written without real concrete idea of what it is... those gone through numerous exam will know what i am trying to say (i guess)...
So, i really can't guess what sort of result i will get but i don't think this is worth worrying because all had beeen set & nothing can change it anymore!
After the exam is the time when all goes into motion... i will be sacrificing my time for the decoration of 'USMKK Chinese New Year Night 2006'! which ultimately means i will have to stay up late until God knows what time, sleeping in lectures, lagging in studies and no time for leisure...
Well, that's life right? I just have to enjoy the whole busy process and get the most out of it!
Wish me luck!
Although i had a week but when it comes to exam, most of the answers are quite spontaneusly creatively written without real concrete idea of what it is... those gone through numerous exam will know what i am trying to say (i guess)...
So, i really can't guess what sort of result i will get but i don't think this is worth worrying because all had beeen set & nothing can change it anymore!
After the exam is the time when all goes into motion... i will be sacrificing my time for the decoration of 'USMKK Chinese New Year Night 2006'! which ultimately means i will have to stay up late until God knows what time, sleeping in lectures, lagging in studies and no time for leisure...
Well, that's life right? I just have to enjoy the whole busy process and get the most out of it!
Wish me luck!
Tuesday, November 29
Thanks 4 finding back my motivation....
Been sick for the past few days partly due to the terrible weather here... it just kept raining and raining... i was caught once in the rain and there i was in my bed, down with fever, flu , headache and cough. I slept a lot in my hostel these few days, skipped lectures and PBls... didn't have the chance to go online also. So, i didn't noticed the comments till now...
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Wow... i feel so touched when i saw the comments for my previous post. It's true we will feel exhausted at some point of our lives and especially so when we are in medical line where there's just so many things that need to be done and it's neverending story... only when we sometimes reflect on what we are doing, for what purpose, can we stay on track towards our destinations.
Now that i have my motivation back, i'll just have to keep it close to me so that it won't go lost again...
Well, many thanks for the comments again!!!
and
Wow... i feel so touched when i saw the comments for my previous post. It's true we will feel exhausted at some point of our lives and especially so when we are in medical line where there's just so many things that need to be done and it's neverending story... only when we sometimes reflect on what we are doing, for what purpose, can we stay on track towards our destinations.
Now that i have my motivation back, i'll just have to keep it close to me so that it won't go lost again...
Well, many thanks for the comments again!!!
Thursday, November 17
Reflection of the future
These few days have been such a hectic period for me. It's as if suddenly, all the projects need my attention these few days. I felt so so so tired yet cannot afford to rest.
Firstly, it's the TITAS exam: TITAS stands for Tamaddun Islam & Tamaddun Asia which i haven't been attending lectures. it's all about last minute study! Okay, this is my fault lar... I admit.
Then, it's my clinical presentation where i have to go hospital to clerk a case, prepare my datas & present it to Dr. in 1 days time! Why? Because of the TITAS exam, i have no extra time to clerk case & have to do it after the exam.
Thirdly it's my CNY Deco duty which is starting tomorrow & i really need to prepare a lot of stuff...
Fourthly, it's the CNY drum team where i help my friend to work out the sequence
Also, i am involve in drum performance on 27 Nov & i have practice sessions now & then
Sixthly (is there such a thing as sixthly? this is the 1st time i am using this term!?!), i have to start settle my Wushu Club secretary stuff which i am planning to postpone, again...
Then, my weekly PBL homework....
So, in the end, i barely have time to sleep!!! Some more i am down with this wisdom tooth pain!!! (ARRRRHHHHH)
If this goes on, i am afraid i'll go crazy just like Mariah Carey!!!
This really made me think, is this will be my future? Always occupied by these things and maybe more; leading a hectic lifestyle of a typical doctor? Leaving me no time for personal leisure e.g. sleeping (my favourite), read novels, just idling around doing nothing (yup, thats what i like to do)
Seriously, i am beginning to have second thoughts about becoming a doctor... my motivation had gone down lately & i know it's very dangerous indeed...
Firstly, it's the TITAS exam: TITAS stands for Tamaddun Islam & Tamaddun Asia which i haven't been attending lectures. it's all about last minute study! Okay, this is my fault lar... I admit.
Then, it's my clinical presentation where i have to go hospital to clerk a case, prepare my datas & present it to Dr. in 1 days time! Why? Because of the TITAS exam, i have no extra time to clerk case & have to do it after the exam.
Thirdly it's my CNY Deco duty which is starting tomorrow & i really need to prepare a lot of stuff...
Fourthly, it's the CNY drum team where i help my friend to work out the sequence
Also, i am involve in drum performance on 27 Nov & i have practice sessions now & then
Sixthly (is there such a thing as sixthly? this is the 1st time i am using this term!?!), i have to start settle my Wushu Club secretary stuff which i am planning to postpone, again...
Then, my weekly PBL homework....
So, in the end, i barely have time to sleep!!! Some more i am down with this wisdom tooth pain!!! (ARRRRHHHHH)
If this goes on, i am afraid i'll go crazy just like Mariah Carey!!!
This really made me think, is this will be my future? Always occupied by these things and maybe more; leading a hectic lifestyle of a typical doctor? Leaving me no time for personal leisure e.g. sleeping (my favourite), read novels, just idling around doing nothing (yup, thats what i like to do)
Seriously, i am beginning to have second thoughts about becoming a doctor... my motivation had gone down lately & i know it's very dangerous indeed...
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