This is the 1st time i personally experience a flood..
As i am writing now, the rain continues to pour & already 10cm of water's risen in my house!!!
For the moment, I have retreated to my room on the 1st floor & miraculously there's line, so here i am, typing this..
I really didn't see it coming.. i was preparing my powerpoint in the living room when suddenly i felt water at my feet.
When i looked around, the kitchen's already flooded!
I had to call my housemate & move things to the 1st floor..
The whole stretch of road was flood & the water was so high, i had to move my car to higher grounds..
My mum's worried if the water will get any higher..
Although the neighbours said that a few centimetres of water is normal during this season, but if the rain continues to fall, i fear for the worst too..
Let's just hope this rain will stop soon...
Monday, December 1
Monday, September 15
... ...
These 2 days have been very bleak indeed.. ..
only received news in the afternoon about the passing away of my dear friend's father of whom i knew quite well too..
he's a robust and very helpful man, also, he's a great planner taking into account the slightest details so that everything goes accordingly.. he's been a great help to me as well.. all these years while i am studying in university, he had been the one i had to rely on to send me home from the train station or bus station..
the father of my dear friend, he had been a great parent, a responsible and meticulous parent who had taken care of every details so that each of his children can have the most out of their lives.. many times i have heard my friend praising his father for all the good qualities..
the only regret might be that he had to leave his family earlier than he intended.. never would have thought that a previously fit man would suddenly fall gravely ill and passed away..
May he rest in peace..
somehow it all made me think back about the death of my own father.. they both passed away at quite similar age.. both due to illness.. both had left their family devastated at the great loss of their dear ones..
but that's the reality of this world, all is impermanent..
only received news in the afternoon about the passing away of my dear friend's father of whom i knew quite well too..
he's a robust and very helpful man, also, he's a great planner taking into account the slightest details so that everything goes accordingly.. he's been a great help to me as well.. all these years while i am studying in university, he had been the one i had to rely on to send me home from the train station or bus station..
the father of my dear friend, he had been a great parent, a responsible and meticulous parent who had taken care of every details so that each of his children can have the most out of their lives.. many times i have heard my friend praising his father for all the good qualities..
the only regret might be that he had to leave his family earlier than he intended.. never would have thought that a previously fit man would suddenly fall gravely ill and passed away..
May he rest in peace..
somehow it all made me think back about the death of my own father.. they both passed away at quite similar age.. both due to illness.. both had left their family devastated at the great loss of their dear ones..
but that's the reality of this world, all is impermanent..
Sunday, September 14
In memory of my Grandma..
Mid-autumn festival, should be a festive occasion
but i never would have thought i would receive a call that changed my day..
in that morning, i was informed that my dear grandma had passed away..
She had been a very gentle and kind person. Always cared for her children and grandchildren. Never bothered about herself but kept on insisting on home-cooked food for every festivals and even on her own birthdays, she toiled the whole morning to whipped out our favourite dishes. Not once had i heard her saying bad things about others. It's quite a blessing to be able to live up to a ripe age of 70+ years, to be able to see the day of the birth of her great-grandchildren.
Just never thought that she would have to succumb to a disease that tortured her even til the day of her death. Never would have thought that she would become a statistic for cancer mortality rate.
May she rest in peace,
May she reap the fruit of her good deeds,
May she continue her journey in favourable conditions that can lead her to the truth of Dhamma.
but i never would have thought i would receive a call that changed my day..
in that morning, i was informed that my dear grandma had passed away..
She had been a very gentle and kind person. Always cared for her children and grandchildren. Never bothered about herself but kept on insisting on home-cooked food for every festivals and even on her own birthdays, she toiled the whole morning to whipped out our favourite dishes. Not once had i heard her saying bad things about others. It's quite a blessing to be able to live up to a ripe age of 70+ years, to be able to see the day of the birth of her great-grandchildren.
Just never thought that she would have to succumb to a disease that tortured her even til the day of her death. Never would have thought that she would become a statistic for cancer mortality rate.
May she rest in peace,
May she reap the fruit of her good deeds,
May she continue her journey in favourable conditions that can lead her to the truth of Dhamma.
Thursday, August 21
Sick
Been having stomachache for 2 days and diarrhoea for 1 day.. Maybe that's the reason why i've been feeling blue..
Tuesday, August 19
Gloom Bloom
Dear me.. don't know what's gotten into me.. feel so blue.. down in the deepest dump.. tired.. depressed.. lost interest..
but have to keep going.. & going.. can't stop.. otherwise, all will come to a complete halt..
but have to keep going.. & going.. can't stop.. otherwise, all will come to a complete halt..
Saturday, July 12
Humans
Humans.. are creatures that's bound to ties and bonds, be it another creature or an object;
Humans.. are creatures full of emotions, good and bad.
Some are highly charged and release their 'voltage' constantly or what known as those with 'High Expressed Emotion' (HEE)
Some tend to not manifest their emotion but kept it in their heart, hence 'Low Expressed Emotion' (LEE)
*note: as you can see now that i naturally belong to LEE family.. ;p
Anyway, life goes on today as per every day, yet a particular event made me feel dull and bored with the ties and bonds that humans share..
What's a friend if he cared too much about returns, what others can do for him.. this influenced him that greatly that he can just keep all the unpleasantness in his mind for like.. forever, and would just keep digging at the old wounds over and over again. His friends will be in the wrong when they didn't asked him out for a meal this time round and would just keep on throwing sarcasms into his friends' faces.. However, he will not be in the wrong when he himself didn't ask his friends out.. Funny right?
He expects other to reciprocate and know what he wants at exactly when he wants it by how he wants it to be without actually asking him.. if not, prepare yourself to meet with Grouchy the dwarf.. (his friends should have at least some basics in mind-reading skills to survive..!) But does he know the sacrifices others did for him? Is he able to read others' minds as well? Should his friends be like him, hoping more from him?
Well, i understand that everyone will have their good and bad qualities; everyone has their good sides and we should always try to look at the positive points and the happy times spent together. I'm just saying it's kinda hard sometimes to understand this type of person and totally avoid clashes that'll result in a cold war for 100 hours which is quite unnecessary.. and at some point, you'll wonder if there's any meaning to it as you tread the road with great caution so as not to step on any traps and every step you take become so deliberate until sometimes you just don't feel like making any moves at all which of course tend to worsen the whole situation.. *sigh*
I really hope there's something cheerful for me to blog in soon or i'll have to change the title of my blog to 'A Gloom Life'...
Humans.. are creatures full of emotions, good and bad.
Some are highly charged and release their 'voltage' constantly or what known as those with 'High Expressed Emotion' (HEE)
Some tend to not manifest their emotion but kept it in their heart, hence 'Low Expressed Emotion' (LEE)
*note: as you can see now that i naturally belong to LEE family.. ;p
Anyway, life goes on today as per every day, yet a particular event made me feel dull and bored with the ties and bonds that humans share..
What's a friend if he cared too much about returns, what others can do for him.. this influenced him that greatly that he can just keep all the unpleasantness in his mind for like.. forever, and would just keep digging at the old wounds over and over again. His friends will be in the wrong when they didn't asked him out for a meal this time round and would just keep on throwing sarcasms into his friends' faces.. However, he will not be in the wrong when he himself didn't ask his friends out.. Funny right?
He expects other to reciprocate and know what he wants at exactly when he wants it by how he wants it to be without actually asking him.. if not, prepare yourself to meet with Grouchy the dwarf.. (his friends should have at least some basics in mind-reading skills to survive..!) But does he know the sacrifices others did for him? Is he able to read others' minds as well? Should his friends be like him, hoping more from him?
Well, i understand that everyone will have their good and bad qualities; everyone has their good sides and we should always try to look at the positive points and the happy times spent together. I'm just saying it's kinda hard sometimes to understand this type of person and totally avoid clashes that'll result in a cold war for 100 hours which is quite unnecessary.. and at some point, you'll wonder if there's any meaning to it as you tread the road with great caution so as not to step on any traps and every step you take become so deliberate until sometimes you just don't feel like making any moves at all which of course tend to worsen the whole situation.. *sigh*
I really hope there's something cheerful for me to blog in soon or i'll have to change the title of my blog to 'A Gloom Life'...
Thursday, July 10
New Semester, New Surprises
Well, well.. what do you know.. here i am in my fifth & final (hopefully) year in medical school. It's been almost a week now since the new semester started and so far so good, at least i am still able to 'curi' a litttle time to write an entry..
But i am afraid it's not that lucky for some other students.. When i first arrived back in ol' campus, a whole bunch of the students got a heck of surprises..!
Now, there's an abrupt rearrangement of hostels and hundred over students were transferred to another hostel resulting in many dissatisfied students including 1 of my buddy. Alright, it's just moving hostel, what's the big deal apart from having to move your things from hostel M to hostel N which is only a football field apart? Oh boy, the climax had yet to come..
When my friend got his room key, we was so shocked to find out that all the students who was transferred to hostel N from M was given querter room (which is like the worst room where you have to share with 3 other students whom you don't know with very very limited personal space only fit for freshmen juniors and maybe 2nd and 3rd year students..) despite the fact that my friend is already a 5th year student!!! This is ridiculous as he had to share his room with 3 other 1st years..! Not only him but all other 5th year students who were transferred had the same fate. When he complained to the officer-in-charge, he was told that the name list was only finalized that day and they had no choice but to slot in the names into any available empty spaces.. the whole bunch of them tried complaining back to hostel M and was given a lot of excuses; as we stood there listening to them, i was thinking, 'yeah, keep on going, you must have thought of 1001 excuses in your brains now to deal with us..' So, in the end, my friend only ended up filing an appeal with the slightest hope to get a better room, but all of us knew that this hope is as dim as a candlelight that's going to burn out..
However, when you thought that this was the climax, there's even a greater height in sight: about 90 students were transferred out from hostel M to a place called UPPU, i didn't know the exact full term but my best guess was Unit Penginapan Pelajar Universiti.. note: they didn't even dare to use the word Hostel, it's just a Unit but the best word for it is actually a Barrack!
This UPPU was actually derived from the 1st and 2nd floor of shophouses where they fit in about 30 beds and cupboards in 1 floor! Visualize: immediately ext to a bed is a cupboard then next to the cupboard is another bed! hard to visualize? just think of a scene of an army barrack in any movies and you'll get a similar picture.. and there's only 3 toilets to be shared by 30 students! Study tables were arranged in 1 row on each side of the wall of a narrow corridor situated at the middle of the unit, where there's no ventilation and not to mention not enough lighting. Imagine how the residents are going to have some of their privacy; where to keep their things without worrying about theft, how to study in that kind of condition?
I really felt sorry for those guys who got their name listed to live in UPPU. As i know, most of them are already planning to find another place to stay..
Wonder, what other surprises are in stored..?
But i am afraid it's not that lucky for some other students.. When i first arrived back in ol' campus, a whole bunch of the students got a heck of surprises..!
Now, there's an abrupt rearrangement of hostels and hundred over students were transferred to another hostel resulting in many dissatisfied students including 1 of my buddy. Alright, it's just moving hostel, what's the big deal apart from having to move your things from hostel M to hostel N which is only a football field apart? Oh boy, the climax had yet to come..
When my friend got his room key, we was so shocked to find out that all the students who was transferred to hostel N from M was given querter room (which is like the worst room where you have to share with 3 other students whom you don't know with very very limited personal space only fit for freshmen juniors and maybe 2nd and 3rd year students..) despite the fact that my friend is already a 5th year student!!! This is ridiculous as he had to share his room with 3 other 1st years..! Not only him but all other 5th year students who were transferred had the same fate. When he complained to the officer-in-charge, he was told that the name list was only finalized that day and they had no choice but to slot in the names into any available empty spaces.. the whole bunch of them tried complaining back to hostel M and was given a lot of excuses; as we stood there listening to them, i was thinking, 'yeah, keep on going, you must have thought of 1001 excuses in your brains now to deal with us..' So, in the end, my friend only ended up filing an appeal with the slightest hope to get a better room, but all of us knew that this hope is as dim as a candlelight that's going to burn out..
However, when you thought that this was the climax, there's even a greater height in sight: about 90 students were transferred out from hostel M to a place called UPPU, i didn't know the exact full term but my best guess was Unit Penginapan Pelajar Universiti.. note: they didn't even dare to use the word Hostel, it's just a Unit but the best word for it is actually a Barrack!
This UPPU was actually derived from the 1st and 2nd floor of shophouses where they fit in about 30 beds and cupboards in 1 floor! Visualize: immediately ext to a bed is a cupboard then next to the cupboard is another bed! hard to visualize? just think of a scene of an army barrack in any movies and you'll get a similar picture.. and there's only 3 toilets to be shared by 30 students! Study tables were arranged in 1 row on each side of the wall of a narrow corridor situated at the middle of the unit, where there's no ventilation and not to mention not enough lighting. Imagine how the residents are going to have some of their privacy; where to keep their things without worrying about theft, how to study in that kind of condition?
I really felt sorry for those guys who got their name listed to live in UPPU. As i know, most of them are already planning to find another place to stay..
Wonder, what other surprises are in stored..?
Wednesday, June 11
less 'Wisdom'
When each person comes-to-age, the 4 wisdom teeth began to find its way out of the gum.. 2 years ago i had 1 of it extracted..
Unexpectedly, I have been having trouble eating and drinking especially cold drinks for the past 1 month or so.. went to dental clinic and found out that it's due to impacted wisom tooth, so made an appointment for MOS (Minor Oral Surgery). Finally, the day came to have my wisdom tooth extracted!
At first, there's only numbness.. then came the pain (after the local anaesthesia worn off).. *ouch*
now, there's still slight bleeding from the site and boy, i'm sure it's going to be swollen for the next few days.. *sigh*
and, now i only have half of my total wisdom left..
Unexpectedly, I have been having trouble eating and drinking especially cold drinks for the past 1 month or so.. went to dental clinic and found out that it's due to impacted wisom tooth, so made an appointment for MOS (Minor Oral Surgery). Finally, the day came to have my wisdom tooth extracted!
At first, there's only numbness.. then came the pain (after the local anaesthesia worn off).. *ouch*
now, there's still slight bleeding from the site and boy, i'm sure it's going to be swollen for the next few days.. *sigh*
and, now i only have half of my total wisdom left..
Monday, May 5
Elective..
Time pass by so fast, one moment i'm just lamenting about how i must struggle in my 4th year and here i am, 2 weeks away from completing my 4th year! he..he..
After that, i am supposed to do my elective posting in Johor Bahru but somthing happened and i may have to stay in Kelantan for another month for my elective before i can have a chance to go back to my hometown.. miss U, JB!
After that, i am supposed to do my elective posting in Johor Bahru but somthing happened and i may have to stay in Kelantan for another month for my elective before i can have a chance to go back to my hometown.. miss U, JB!
Wednesday, February 27
Uncertainty...
Sometimes, i would feel like i am such a fool.. i know i am still human and still do mistakes but i try my best to be a better person, but why others don't seemed to appreciate this? Or am i not trying enough?
i tried to accommodate my teammates, sometimes halted my progression to wait for others so that we can advance together. However, at times i would just get dumped by other where they started to sprint without me.. the result: others would go ahead of me & i'll be the one who's left behind..
Am i doing something that i shouldn't have to do? Am i suppose to as selfish as others to grab every chance possible and not let others benefit from it? Am i doing the wrong thing or am i doing the right thing the wrong way?
Sometimes, i just felt 'down' and uncertain about what kind of person i'll be in the future? Am i really prepared to mature? to go out into the world full with uncertainties? Sometimes, i felt like i am still a small inexperienced kid who's still living in a world of my own..
Is it only me who's thinking this way or is it everybody will feel this once in a while?
i tried to accommodate my teammates, sometimes halted my progression to wait for others so that we can advance together. However, at times i would just get dumped by other where they started to sprint without me.. the result: others would go ahead of me & i'll be the one who's left behind..
Am i doing something that i shouldn't have to do? Am i suppose to as selfish as others to grab every chance possible and not let others benefit from it? Am i doing the wrong thing or am i doing the right thing the wrong way?
Sometimes, i just felt 'down' and uncertain about what kind of person i'll be in the future? Am i really prepared to mature? to go out into the world full with uncertainties? Sometimes, i felt like i am still a small inexperienced kid who's still living in a world of my own..
Is it only me who's thinking this way or is it everybody will feel this once in a while?
Sunday, January 27
Chinese New Year Celebration..
USM's Chinese New Year Night was fantastic! I enjoyed it very much. The organizers sure put in a lot of effort and it's all worth it..! This is the 1st time the celebration was held outside of campus, it's nice although i personally prefer it to be in the campus, then there would be more 'feel' to it.. I seriously have to take my hats off to the organizers.. Firstly, the show's getting better and more 'pro' by the year. They're even able to use high-tech animation to bring out the storyline of their sketch, the animation is so nice, it felt like i was watching an introduction to a RPG game.. well, although at times the story by the animation was quite lengthy.. They've managed to link up almost the performances that night to the main sketch which gave it a nice touch of continuity of the night's programme.
The decoration was simple yet and a traditional touch to it. I liked this year's backdrop:
The dragon was quite majestic in close view but maybe the audience can't appreciate the details much from far distance. This alone brings out the Chinese New Year 'feel' to the hall. Also, they decorated the pillars around the hall with smaller dragons..
At the main door, they put up images of their sketch's main characters, Yue Fei and his son, Yue Yun. (At first I thought it was the 2 door guardians..!?! he..he..)
Too bad my eyes were closed..! =(
It was also a precious time for our coursemates to gather and chat. It's difficult to find a time when we can gather our coursemates from various postings and have a get-together. It really felt wonderful..
Monday, January 21
Tolerate..
It has been a busy day & just want to share a little something that my friend had said.
He told me about a story of a granddaughter & her granddad. It goes like this:
Once, there was a granddaughter (let's name her Mel, so that i need not type the word 'granddaughter' that many times.. ;p) who loved fell in love with a man at 1st sight. After Mel's marriage, she gradually realized that she's finding more & more faults in her husband, thus they ended up always in a quarrel. Everytime, she would complain to her granddad about her husband. Her granddad had always just listen to her stories without any response. Until 1 fine day, Mel went to her grandad'a place to complain again. This time round, granddad handed Mel a piece of white paper & a pen. "Mel, do put down a dot for every fault that you think your husband has..". So, Mel made a dot for every thing that she's not satisfied at.. At last, Mel had at least thousands of dots on the piece of paper. "Ok, that should be it, you see, the dots covered practically the whole paper..!" Then, her granddad said to her, "well, there seemed to be quite a lot of dots that made both of you unhappy.." "but, why didn't you realize that although there might be a thousand dots on this paper, there are still lots of spaces left white..!"
Have you got what he meant?
When two people are living with each other, surely every bits of theirselves will show for the partner to see; however, if all that you saw is faults & weaknesses, surely there will be hard times ahead. Besides the faults, surely everyone has their own strong points, so why not focus on these and not dwell on the weaknesses. This way, there will be tolerance & understanding towards each other. I think this doesn't only apply to marriage but to every relationships: parents-children, friends, students-teachers and even enemies! This way, you'll also be more contented & feel happy for yourself.. so why not?
He told me about a story of a granddaughter & her granddad. It goes like this:
Once, there was a granddaughter (let's name her Mel, so that i need not type the word 'granddaughter' that many times.. ;p) who loved fell in love with a man at 1st sight. After Mel's marriage, she gradually realized that she's finding more & more faults in her husband, thus they ended up always in a quarrel. Everytime, she would complain to her granddad about her husband. Her granddad had always just listen to her stories without any response. Until 1 fine day, Mel went to her grandad'a place to complain again. This time round, granddad handed Mel a piece of white paper & a pen. "Mel, do put down a dot for every fault that you think your husband has..". So, Mel made a dot for every thing that she's not satisfied at.. At last, Mel had at least thousands of dots on the piece of paper. "Ok, that should be it, you see, the dots covered practically the whole paper..!" Then, her granddad said to her, "well, there seemed to be quite a lot of dots that made both of you unhappy.." "but, why didn't you realize that although there might be a thousand dots on this paper, there are still lots of spaces left white..!"
Have you got what he meant?
When two people are living with each other, surely every bits of theirselves will show for the partner to see; however, if all that you saw is faults & weaknesses, surely there will be hard times ahead. Besides the faults, surely everyone has their own strong points, so why not focus on these and not dwell on the weaknesses. This way, there will be tolerance & understanding towards each other. I think this doesn't only apply to marriage but to every relationships: parents-children, friends, students-teachers and even enemies! This way, you'll also be more contented & feel happy for yourself.. so why not?
Saturday, January 12
Down with a flu..
Just my luck, down with flu.. it just seized me so suddenly! when i woke up in the morning, i got all the symptoms: tired, runny nose, red eyes, cough & sore throat..
Decided to just stay in my room all day, therefore bought some ingredients from 7-11 for my breakfast, lunch & dinner.
Breakfast: Mushroom soup + bread
Lunch: Ice Lemon Tea + tuna sandwich + cawanmushi
Still feeling quite sick now.. tonight have to sleep early.
Decided to just stay in my room all day, therefore bought some ingredients from 7-11 for my breakfast, lunch & dinner.
Breakfast: Mushroom soup + bread
Lunch: Ice Lemon Tea + tuna sandwich + cawanmushi
My lunch..!
Still feeling quite sick now.. tonight have to sleep early.
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