New Insight

Before medical school, i just thought, Doctors are great; just like the angels from above, pure & perfect.. i wonder in awe..

When i am applying for medical school, i just thought, being a Doctor is great; be able to help others! but did i ever thought, am i really suitable for this responsibility or am i just taking it due to external influence? Am i taking it too lightly?

In 1st year, i just thought, Doctors are great: they need to squeeze all that information about the human body into that little brain of theirs so that they can perform their duty well..

In 2nd year, i just thought, Doctors are great; they just need to clerk the patients & perform examinations to know what's wrong with their body & manage accordingly..

Little did i thought what a real doctor's life is like.. that the responsibilities are far more than what other people sees..

In 4th year, i finally realized that being a true doctor, you'll need a sincerely caring heart for others; not just eager to treat their illness but treat others as a whole (biologically, emotionally, socially). You need to be truly dedicated, the amount of time spent with the patient in ward isn't enough, the time dedicated outstretch far more invading your personal time.. you may need to call their family for clarifications, you need to do home visits, you need to read up about their diseases.. you also need a lot of zest & enthusiasm to continue giving out what you have despite all the setbacks, the falls, the tiredness, the harsh words of others..

Do i even have all those qualities? i am seriously not sure myself.. i am trying to balance myself, always keeping on motivating myself, telling myself i can't fall down.. at least not now.. i really hope i can be a true doctor..