Thoughts & Headaches

Been thinking about the title of my last post... Life is indeed contradicting. While doctors are said to be with no social life, their job revolves around their patients most of the time! So i guess patients and their families ARE doctors' social circle in COMPENSATION to the loss of their normal social circles.
Patients + Patients Families in exchange for Friends + Own families.
Wow! Doctors really have to sacrifice A LOT!

Then again, i can't help but to feel that even at the current moment, i began to loss touch with human interaction (well, most probably because of my quiet nature) ; sometimes i feel it's harder and harder to understand how a person thinks & acts (is it because i've seen deceits, selfishness, misunderstandings and backstabs that i am losing my faith in human, in myself perhaps?) ; how is that going to help me in dealing with patients in the future? Will i become a robot doctor? A doctor that will only be determine to discover the underlying disease my patients have? Will i just go to my patient, ask relevant history, perform physical examination, identify disease, give treatment, full stop; without any empathy towards how the patient feels? Is that a healthy human interaction?

But which is better? A more competent yet apathy doctor or A not-so-good-with-skills doctor that is able to soothe your pain? Can i get the best of both worlds, be a very competent and empathic doctor?

I feel that my personality itself does permit me to gain the best of both worlds; seriously i feel i am totally bad at soft skills and it has to be the hardest skill to acquire and learn, you can't possibly learn it through lectures or course or books!
Anyhow, I am trying to change myself in order to walk that very path to reach that very destination.. just that sometimes i need more than average motivation to keep me going..!

Well i guess the path of a medical practitioner is tougher than tough but in the end, when you know you can make a difference in other people's lives; to be able to put an end to others miseries, however small it is; these are good enough reasons to lighten up the spirit a bit!

Lastly, a phrase worthy of the posting's theme that every medical practitioner have heard a zillion times,
"You must treat patient as a whole not just treat the disease itself..!"


Anyway, been having headaches for a few days now... Don't know why all these thoughts spurt out of my mind when i am having a bad headache..!?! Weird.