Sometimes, i would feel like i am such a fool.. i know i am still human and still do mistakes but i try my best to be a better person, but why others don't seemed to appreciate this? Or am i not trying enough?
i tried to accommodate my teammates, sometimes halted my progression to wait for others so that we can advance together. However, at times i would just get dumped by other where they started to sprint without me.. the result: others would go ahead of me & i'll be the one who's left behind..
Am i doing something that i shouldn't have to do? Am i suppose to as selfish as others to grab every chance possible and not let others benefit from it? Am i doing the wrong thing or am i doing the right thing the wrong way?
Sometimes, i just felt 'down' and uncertain about what kind of person i'll be in the future? Am i really prepared to mature? to go out into the world full with uncertainties? Sometimes, i felt like i am still a small inexperienced kid who's still living in a world of my own..
Is it only me who's thinking this way or is it everybody will feel this once in a while?
