Sunday, September 24

What Tarot Card Are You?

Found this nice short quiz. Try it out!

I Am The High Priestess

You represent mystery - secrets that are yet to be revealed.You find yourself sitting between two worlds: one dark, one light.You tend to hold these two worlds in balance, reconciling the two.Open and welcoming, you invite others to learn your secrets.
Your fortune:
Something hidden, or latent, in your life is about to come forward.You need to pay more attention to your dreams, thoughts, intuition, and imagination.And if that involves tapping into your dark side, it will all balance out in the end.You have a lot of potential dying to be unleashed, so let those gates open!

Back from Outing Camp

Just came back from Buddhist outing Camp organized by the 2nd years. So darn tired... I feel like my minds floating in and out of consciousness as i am writing this... (oh, should be typing this, not wrting... ; p)

i couldn't believe it when i reached the camping site on day 1 as they have chosen the exact same resort that we were in last year! Furthermore it had changed quite a lot. What formerly was an old wooden elevated platform with a roof (they called it a hall) transformed into a fully air-conditioned room with glass windows, now that's a proper hall..!

I enjoyed the time very much there, able to interact with the freshies (by now not so fresh liao lar...) and also got to relax my mind.
I am really impressed by the juniors. 1st of all the exquisite booklets, personalized name tags and the camp T-shirt was really nicely done. At once can see that they put in 200% of effort into it..!
Next is the campfire, it's opening ceremony was fantastic! They made a wheel (which symbolizes the 8 Noble Truths) out of rope with a ball in the middle. When the wheel is lit on with a torch, the ball in the middle will also caught in flame and in turn roll down a wire framed tunnel to lit up the main campfire. It was so professional!
The station games on the next day was also nicely designed. Not too strenous for old people like me.. yet still challenging enough. The games tested teamwork and also planning and strateging techniques of the participants.
The food and desserts was also heart warming, the talk was inspiring and the hymns selected was so beautiful and brought back fond memories of past years' camps..
But what i lived most about the camp is ... i can sleep on the beach under the starry sky! It was the ultimate pleasure for me to be able to lay on the beach and look at the stars! The wind wasn't too strong and the sky was more and more brilliant as the night pass by... It's sooooo nice!
I really appreciate the efforts of the 2nd years for the great camp!

But for now, have to go scrub the flour off my clothes and get the sands off as well...

Sunday, September 17

Back to the Past

Did anyone tell you that when you feel stressed, unhappy or hurt, your body will react and try to go back to the condition when you are small to sooth ourselves? Just like when you are sad, you cry like a baby and get over it after the cry; and when you are troubled, you think about your home & family who's always there for you since birth, when you get emotional, you hope someone will 'manja' you just like when you are a little child...

For me, i just found a lost piece of my past that makes me happy... watching serial dramas!!! It has been such a long time since i watched drama, ever since i entered university, i practically lost touch with my best buddy, 'television'. I recalled how i used to stick to the TV screen starting from 5.30pm to about 11pm! All the while studying of course (my study table was in the living room, lucky!).
5.30pm til 6.30pm is allocated for cartoons
6.30 til 7.00pm: eat dinner & bath (because news is on)
7.00pm til 10pm: Chinese dramas
10pm onwards: english serials
I almost forgot what kind of feeling that was...

Until recently, i watched a Hong Kong serial drama (yup, 20 episodes at one go! Yippee!!!) while i study during the weekend and it felt so great!!! The feeling is indescribeable.. just like you have attained nirvana! (maybe i exaggerated a bit.. but only a tiny itsy bit...)

So i decided to keep this on and revert to my old custom: studying while watching dramas! He..He..

Monday, September 11

The Meaning of Friends

What actually does the word 'friends' mean?

Does it merely mean playmates? studymates? Those with similar if not same interests? Those whom you are comfortable to be around with? Those whom you did some of the craziest things together? Those who knows you inside out? Those who always spend a lot of times with you?

'Friends' can be categorized into few categories, according to some, namely mere friends, good friends, best friends, true friends. But how are we going to differentiate from one another? Just by the total time we spent with each other? the number of words we spoke to each other? The number of meals we had together? This is how we built our connections with friends, is it not? Meaning the deeper the connection the deeper the friendship, right? The deeper it is, the higher the category of friendship. I am sure most of us agreed upon this.

But then thinking back, even if the amount of time spent together totals up to an astronomical number (meaning a lot lar) if that person is just putting up a mask with you, will you be able to make a connestion? if yes, is that connection true? Then, if someone who puts down all the masks and you realized that actually you liked that person with masks better, what then? People can finally show you their true colours meaning the connection must be as deep as ocean yet you prefer the actor??? Can an actor be a true friend?

Time spent.. Will friendship fade with time if the two friends were in the opposite points of the earth? Will the 'friendship' downgrades from true to best, from best to good, from good to mere friends?Different places = less talking = less playing = less time spent together. But still the connections must be still there right? If it really does fade, how meaningful this 'friendship' is? Is it true to say the lesser the communication the faster the 'friendship' fades? Is there a kind of 'friendship' that doesn't fade with time?

Understanding. Well, being 'friends' must have a certain understanding. If that person understands you, knows what makes you happy, knows what you really want but that will eventually bring you further apart (because you know you don't belong there, if not who won't want the best of both worlds?!?), will you let the other person go? Is it consider 'friends' if you selfishly keep your 'friend' by your side when you know your 'friend' will be happier elsewhere? Again, if you let go, will the 'friendship' stays, completely or partially? Or will it fade and just gone with the wind? Will that 'friend' knows how to cherish the friendship built over a long period of time?

Quantity & Quality. Some people like to have as many true friends (Quantity counts) as possible while some prefer keeping 1 or 2 true friends (Quality counts). Most of the popular ones belong to the 1st group and the quiet ones, the latter. Thus bringing us to a question: does the quantity really represent something important? You have to sacrifice the quality for the quantity, true? If you diversify surely the qualities of individual friendship doesn't really make up to the quality of a friend whom you focus on. It doesn't really bring us much problem if the two friends are from the same category.

What if, for instance, A is from Quantity group and Z is from Quality group. Z knows A will only be happy if A has a lot of so called true friends, so Z can't spend much time with A. Therefore in the context of Z, Z will feel that the friendship is somehow weakened, right? Yet maybe for A, A will feel Z had gotten much more and yearn to break off and find other 'friends'... If superimposed on the condition where A knows what Z wants Y to be his next true friend yet A and Y can't meet eye to eye... Of course as a friend, A will definitely let Z go... As A let go, A must have already thought that the 'friendship' will begin to fade just didn't know will fade to which degree? Z on the other hand couldn't understand why A is doing this as in Z's context, Z want to maintain as many true friends as possible (meaning Z doesn't want any of the 'friendships' to drop even slightly). What will happen to them?

It's very complicated when we reflect upon this isn't it? It all boils down to attachments actually is it not? The deeper the connection, the greater the attachment, the harder to let go. Nothing is permanent right?